“Now I Know” (drama) 2 Minutes

Monologue Description: “Now I Know” is about a man making sense of himself, his father and life.

Character Description: In this monologue, Pat confesses to himself a realization of himself.

 (staring out into the country)

Pat talks to himself

PAT:

…I haven’t cried in years.  Can’t remember the last time I did.  I can’t recall either of my eyes getting watery in quite some time.  I think that the toughness of living life can make a man hard inside. 

…I used to think that tears coming out from a man was okay.  When my brother Roger died, back when I was a kid, I remember looking up to my father, holding his hand as we both peered over Roger’s coffin.  Not one tear came out from my father’s eye.  Notta one.

…I always wondered why in God’s name didn’t my father shed a tear.  I thought of him as bad.  Bad in a way of wrong.  I thought my father was wrong…

Time went past and I grew up to be my father’s age and it wasn’t long before I too realized how difficult life can be and that crying, crying is just something that dies away.

(LONG pause)

When I looked down at my daughter Cindy, in HER coffin, I didn’t feel alive…I haven’t felt alive since my daughter died.

(beat)

And now I know dad, now I know why you couldn’t cry.

(he cries)

Now I know.