Will tries to justify his wrong doings with a bunch of excuses but in this monologue he hears himself talk enough to slowly recognize his own b.s.
WILL: You wanna know what it is? You see, I never grew up with a father. You know why? Cause he was murdered. Got shot up during a drug deal. He ran down the stairs into a deli and died calling my brother’s name.
So you wanna know what it is? It’s that. Not having a father and me trying to be my own man without having that guidance. Looking for it in my cousins, in my friends, in my uncles. And I always try to look up to one of them but somehow it always backfires. They will do something wrong and I will look at them different. So I pick another father figure.
So, I got tired of it and now I try to do edgy stuff to show what I can do and so I can have respect on my own.