Distance Myself

In this female drama monologue, SANDRA talks to her friend Gale about how they shouldn’t be friends any longer.  

SANDRA:  I was going to just disappear and that was it.  I was going to delete you from all my social media accounts, change my phone number and distance myself from you completely.

You know…we’ve known one another since we were kids…that’s a hard thing to ignore.  Lots of memories, lots of life lived through all that time but I’ve come to realize that no matter how many laughs we’ve had or how many intimate conversations we’ve shared; I’ve never felt safe around you.

The last time we hung out, you left me out to dry.  You forced me to hang out with your friends and I wasn’t feeling it at all.  I really only wanted us to spend some one on one time together, to talk, to catch up.  Real talk, you know?  (beat)  The entire time was spent “trying” to talk because every two minutes you had your face buried in your phone.  To top it all off you forced me to go meet up and go out with your other friends and I realized I had too much to drink.  You were going to come back to my place and sleep over but you never did. You ended up throwing me in a cab and my night took a turn for the worse.

The cab left me off ten blocks away from where I live.  I was drunk at this point, Gale…it was around four in the morning and it was freezing cold and snowing.  I had no idea where I was and I was scared.

Now, I’m not saying that I shouldn’t be responsible for my own life and actions…because I should be and I would be total bullshit if I didn’t own up to my own responsibilities but we both know I’m not good with the drink and I trusted that I would be fine because you were coming back to my place.

I felt like you misled me and didn’t care one bit about my well being.  You go out and party each and every night…this is your way of life and I just couldn’t keep up with you.  I can’t even begin to tell you the rest of my night, Gale…let’s just say I have an angel looking out for me…you have no idea.

This all got me to thinking how horrible you’ve always been to me.  I thought real carefully, long and hard about those same memories we’ve shared…and I’ve come to the painful realization that most of them were always the same…most of them have always been some situation that I’ve had to get myself out of…I don’t think that’s friendship…the situations I’ve found myself in…I don’t know…I wouldn’t ever do that to you.

It’s this lack of friendship, lack of love that hurts me and makes me realize we shouldn’t be friends any longer.

Daniella Alma

Daniella Alma is an Actress / Producer, born and raised in London, UK and now living in New York City. She is also the Creative Producer/Journalist of Monologue Blogger, wherein she conducts interviews with filmmakers from around the globe. Her leading film work as an Actress has premiered in Festival de Cannes, Tribeca, Renaissance Film Festival and BIFF. Upcoming projects: Daniella Alma's next role will streaming in a new Hulu Original in late 2017.

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