A dramatic monologue called Mental Block about a woman who can’t seem to find satisfaction with something long enough to complete a task.
SULLA: I’m not working hard enough. I’m not. I don’t know how to get things going for myself. I get motivated and then it fizzles out, pretty quickly. I don’t know what’s wrong with me. It’s with everything though.
Want me to give you a couple of examples?
Alright…earlier today I was excited to go out and pick up some ice-cream. I had this enormous desire for vanilla fudge covered ice-cream, so I got dressed, gathered my things, got into my car, strapped myself in, turned the ignition on annnnnd sat there…didn’t move…just stared out at the garage door for about fifteen minutes. Yep.
I didn’t want to go anymore…at that moment, I decided I was too lazy to drive to get the ice-cream and yet I still wanted it but not that badly to make the drive there and back. The need faded away. I was so frustrated about it.
Isn’t that messed up? The other day I was online shopping for the perfect pair of shoes to go with my new dress and I found the exact pair and as soon as I added the item to my shopping cart, I lost interest. All I had to do was click a button and I just sat in my chair staring at the button and x’d out.
I can go on and on and on…it can be small things, big things…I lose interest, I get bored, I get distracted…I get unhappy.
I want to be engaged, interested, excited about things. I need something that is going to hold my interest for a long enough period of time so I can feel satisfied, like make it to the end of something…I feel like I always quit before completion and I’m always frustrated.
It’s like a mental block in my thinking…please help me, what do you think I should do about this?