Truest Colors is a serio-comedic monologue piece about Kyra afraid to show the man she loves her most genuine self for fear of a negative reaction from him.
Kyra: I love him, all of him, completely. He embodies my heart and he really does make me happy but, I have a huge problem. How can I explain this? Umm, he loves me too, it’s clear and there’s no questioning his love for me but it’s just not the real me.
You see, when we first met, which was about a year ago, I wasn’t myself with him. Like in the beginning of our relationship, I was always happy and cheerful and never let him see my real self.
At some point during a relationship, after all the cheery stuff goes, you begin to take in the person for who they actually are and hopefully, deepen your feelings for them.
I never let my guard down. I’ve been keeping up with appearances, basically. I’ve never showed him my truest colors and I’m in a constant state of anxiety over it.
I don’t know why I’ve done this. I don’t know how to get out of it.
My biggest fear is that one day I’m going to go BLLLAAAAAAHHHHH and release all this pent up frustration I’ve been secretly hiding in our relationship and I’m worried he will freak out and run for the highest hills he can find…
Maybe it’s because I think I’m not good enough. Am I good enough for him? I am. I’m definitely good enough for him and he’s good enough for me in so many ways imaginable.
I just got caught up. Things always seem to be going great with him and I’ve never been so happy in all my life…I don’t want it to end.
What do you think I should do? Should I try talking to him about this? He will probably think I’m crazy. Maybe I should just throw a glass dish or something and let the shit fly where it needs to fly. I’m joking.
Hmmm….hmmm, hmmm and hmmm. Any thoughts?