Songs From the Courtyard
Drama monologue from the eplay, “Songs From the Courtyard” where Paul talks to his girlfriend about how he isn’t capable of changing.
PAUL: I can’t change, no matter how much I want to change. It’s somethin’ in my brain, I think.
A chemical that goes off; the wiring; it’s how I’ve been put together.
I’d have to be rebuilt, or somethin’…. yeah? I’ve got to get torn down and made from scratch, ’cause that’s the only way I could love you without threat. I could love you with wings.
I’d go to the factory where I could become a better Paul. I’d have them untwist the twisted parts; go in for a polish at that factory place, if it existed; maybe there is one that does exist, but I haven’t found it yet; maybe you can come with me and we can find it together..so, I could..ya know, get my cleanup.
We could make a list of all the things I’d done to ya and all the things that are wrong with me, and I could pay them a hefty sum to remove all those things I done and all those things that I have wrong in me, and maybe, then, maybe I’ll be alright. Just wanna be alright is all.
Either we find this factory or you take me as I am or you refuse me, but don’t change all my old parts, we have to leave that for the experts. If they do exist. Somewhere I’m sure of it.
I am what the hell I am, so that’s all there is …
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In the one-act eplay, “Songs From the Courtyard” McKenzie won’t allow Paul back in their apartment due to the severity of his moods and volatility of their relationship. 1 Woman, 1 Man. Drama/Serio-Comedy.
