I needed the pain but I can’t understand it.
In this scene from the 1 act eplay, ‘The Next Chapter’, Emily opens up to her best friend regarding her failed love life and music career.
DAR: Why did you go to California in the first place, Em?
EMILY: Career.
DAR: Couldn’t you be a singer here in New York?
EMILY: I needed…I needed to get away from here, I needed to understand things better.
DAR: (Sighs.) But you’ve always known who you are.
EMILY: I know. I just needed something new, I needed change. I couldn’t stand being here anymore. I needed time to think, to be myself, without anyone else’s opinion on how or what I should be thinking or doing.
DAR: I get it…I missed you.
EMILY: I know.
DAR: For the first few months, I did nothing but bum around.
EMILY: Why?
DAR: I didn’t have my little buddy with me anymore and everything sucked. I considered moving out to California with you.
(They both laugh.)
I thought maybe there was something out there I was missing. You didn’t even call me, Em. I mean…you told me that you’d be in touch and it never happened. I kept waiting for your call. Those months were painful. I wanted to call you but I thought you’d be busy, or happier without hearing from me. I wanted to give you that freedom. Eventually so much time passed, I figured you moved on to some great new life and forgot all about me.
EMILY: I thought about you every single day.
DAR: Did you?
EMILY: Every day…
DAR: …Em, what happened to you out there?
EMILY: It’s all the past Dar, none of it means anything anymore.
DAR: What happened? Why didn’t I hear from you?
EMILY: …I wanted to call you, hear your voice, I needed a lifeline but I refused an outlet, cause, I don’t know, I wanted to get through it on my own. I wanted to learn how to be my own person without depending on anyone.
DAR: But I’d be there for you in a heart beat.
EMILY: That’s just it, I know that and that’s the whole point. I didn’t want to burden you with my problems. You never did that to me and I didn’t want to be the one always doing that to you.
DAR: …You aren’t yourself Em. I mean, you’re you but you aren’t you, does that make any sense?
EMILY: Makes total sense.
DAR: (Not pushing.) Yeah.
EMILY: This has been the most difficult time of my life and the strangest thing about it all is that it’s exactly what I need…doesn’t even make sense, right? In some way, I needed the pain but I can’t understand it.
DAR: …But you’re back now and you’re going to get on track with things in the city you love. I’m around you again and you’re around family, so –
EMILY: Don’t remind me.
DAR: (Laughs.) They haven’t changed.
EMILY: Never will.
DAR: I haven’t even heard of any of your latest music. Didn’t you say you were cutting an album out there or something?
EMILY: I was but…ah, it didn’t work out.
DAR: Why?
EMILY: I fell in love.
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In this one-act ePlay, Emily opens up to her best friend Dar about her life changing experience in California.
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